March 3, 2010
Life, TV
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Watching the Ken Burns National Parks documentary on KPBS. It makes me want to rent an RV and drive around this beautiful country of ours. Only been to Yosemite so far in my life, and I got so much more to see. There is so much beauty in the US, but we forget about it or don’t think about it cause we don’t take the time to sit back and enjoy it. I think one of the next places I want to visit is the Redwood National Park. It’s crazy to think that when they first became a National Park, 85% of the forest had already been logged and only half of what remained was set up as a National Park.
Last year when we went to Joshua Tree for some camping it made me want to do even more. Just to get out in nature and get away from it all is the best thing you can do for yourself. Even just getting out into nature and going on a hike will clear your head. Hell, last week when I was feeling down I took a “personal day” and went outside for a few hours and weed whacked the shit out of our front yard. Who would of thought doing “work” outside on a beautiful day would be so cleansing of the soul. Back when I was a kid, I wanted nothing to do with being outside working. And with that, the city of San Diego is planning to turn the Plaza De Panama in Balboa Park back into a pedestrian area and remove all the parking and traffic in the area. There are lots of people who are against it cause they feel the parking is needed cause they don’t want to walk their fat asses too far to get to the museums. How could you not want one of the most beautiful areas of San Diego changed from a parking lot into a large open area where you can sit an enjoy the day? I understand the handicap spaces need to be saved and I’m completely cool with that, but for all you other fat asses you need to stop complaining. Yeah that sounds kinda harsh, but it’s true. You don’t want beauty for your city cause you don’t want to walk any further to get to the museums?
I’m gonna get a bike soon so I can ride around the town and enjoy my weekends. Being able to ride a bike from my home to Balboa Park, around North/South Park, maybe even down along the bay any given day is something I now look forward too. A year ago I never would of thought this would be enjoyable. Now I can’t wait to do it. If anyone has a good suggestion for me on a good bike to get, I’d appreciate it.
February 24, 2010
Life
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Seems like there’s so much I wanna do, but don’t want to do it at the same time. I don’t know if you’d call it being lazy or not, but if there’s something I want to do or somewhere I wanna go I end up thinking of all the reasons not to do it. Most of the time it’s cause I’m wondering what people at said place are gonna think or say about me. So the final solution is to not go and then I won’t have to worry about it. Good plan right? Hell no, makes me miserable. When I do go out I tend to sit by myself and not say a word to anyone unless I know em cause then I won’t have the chance of making a fool of myself.
I’m fine when I’m going out to meet up with friends for the most part. It take a little bit of nudging to get me to go out, but once I do I’m good. Now if I’m going somewhere by myself, that’s when this all happens. If there’s a show I want to go to I stay home. Never been that good at making friends on my own and all the folks I’m friends with now are cause of other friends. Once I get a few drinks in me and someone strikes up a conversation I’m pretty good with being social, but more often than not I feel like the one guy at the bar that everyone points at cause he’s drunk and on his own.
Playing music used to bring me joy, but now I don’t even want to play cause I don’t have faith in my playing ability. Yeah I was in a band for some time, but when you play the same songs over and over you get pretty good at em. Trying to come up with new ones was rough to say the least. Now to have to start it all over just doesn’t seem like something I want to put myself through, but at the same time I want to. The only thing that’s bringing me joy these days is hockey and that’s fucking expensive to do all the time. If I were to play every chance I could that would be like $60 a week and I don’t have that kind of cash.
Maybe I just can’t wait to get away from it all for a little while. I wanna go on an extended vacation, or better yet move out of town and get a fresh start. I do think about that once or twice a year and my time to act on it is getting shorter and shorter. Ohhh well, here’s to better times.