so this week i had to close at work every night but my days off. wasn’t so bad though. got off work, went to the bar then went home pretty much every night. got to sleep in every day and missed all the traffic on my way to work. as of tomorrow it’s back to the normal shifts which i’m kind of bummed about. ohh well. We are going to be loosing a good friend from work as of tuesday at 5:30pm. I’m really bummed. she is the best. wish she could stay.

working at lou’s is great. my music collection is expanding pretty quickly and i’m glad for that. i love music and can’t get enough of it. i’m gonna have to get a new CD rack soon.

been hanging out with my buddies mike, amy, mark and kristen again. i love those guys. cool ass people.

what else. ohh yeah. i got to hang out with the rev last week. it’s really weird going from a huge fan to being a worker/friend of one of your idols. it’s one of those dream jobs or something. never figured i would ever have something like this happen to me. i’m gonna go see em again on the 8th. i still get all nervous and stuff. like i’m meeting em for the first time then after a few beers i’m calm and collective.

anyways, back to what you all were doing.

the one thing i hate it the unknown when it comes to people. how you have such a good time with someone and everything seems so right, but then you never quite know what’s going on in their mind. when someone is always making it a point to always be close to you, look at you, talk with you, touch you but somehow always seem to keep you at a distance. the fact that some times you just want to spill your guts to them but are afraid of what may come out of it.

then there are the times when you had all that stuff but then it went away. the ones that like to have what they have, but keep what they want close by so they can have that when they want it. they keep pulling you back in the most subtle ways. sometimes they keep showing up at places you are always at and they never would be. they keep checking in on you without you knowing. when you have it good they seem to always be right there cheering you on, but when it’s gone so are they.

crazy how things turn on you when you least expect it, but it seems to work out perfect for you. i thought i had lost everything but now i know who i am and everything is going great. i’ve been super busy with everything in my life. works been great, bands been great, friends have been great. i’m very content and it may be a bit messed up, but i get joy out of knowing i’ve come out on top.